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4th June 2012

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I'm surrounded by vanillas.

  • Me: Do you know about BDSM?
  • Him: Not really. What does that even stand for?
  • Me: ....i feel like if i tell you, it'll corrupt you.
  • Him: No I've seen a lot of shit on the internet.
  • Me: bondage/discipline, domination/submission, sadism/masochism.
  • Him: ......oh. *changes subject*

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27th May 2012

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Thirty days of kink: day seven.

Day 7: What’s your favorite toy?

Oh my, that’s really really hard.  It all depends on my mood and the situation.  Recently i’ve been loving my plugs, working at getting bigger ones in there so that when i meet Master i won’t have any problems taking His thick cock in my ass.  Other than that, I’ve been a painslut/extreme masochist recently, and have begun playing with candle wax, nipple clamps (other than clothespins), and I’ve been toying with the idea of buying a crop, which I think Master is just as excited about.  He’s a sadist and He loves to hear me in pain anyways.

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26th May 2012

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Thirty days of kink: day six.

Day 6: Describe your weirdest/most interesting sexual fantasy.

Hmmm, I have quite a lot of different fantasies for sure.  I think the two that Master and I touch on the most are the idea of Him “whoring me out” to His friends, and the idea of Him fucking me in front of my roommate/while my roommate can hear us.  The first one intrigues me the most.  I’m somewhat of an exhibitionist, so I really like the idea of being fucked in public places, or even just being humiliated and teased in public.  I would love to be paraded around with my leash as a show for His friends, letting them see what a dirty little whore i am for Him, and potentially letting them take turns fucking me while He stands watch or while He joins in and plays.  The roommate thing stems from His desire to be the “bull” in a cuckold situation.  I don’t really know why this turns me on so much, but it definitely does, but that could also stem from my desire to be fucked in front of other people.  Oftentimes when we’re playing late at night and I get a little loud and muffle myself, He will say things like “oh, trying to keep quiet?  don’t want your roomie to hear you being a little slut?” and just dfogindiofgndg it turns me the fuck on.

Have i mentioned i like to be patronized, degraded, and objectified?  I think you guys get that by now :)

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25th May 2012

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Thirty days of kink: day five.

Day 5: What was your first kinky sexual experience?  If you haven’t had one yet, talk about what you hope to have happen.

Hmmm, probably the one and only time I was ever tied up.  I was dealing with a rather dominant man at the time, one who introduced me to more erogenous zones than I knew existed (like having my wrists bitten.. literally sent shivers up my spine) and also confirmed my love for some kinks, like having my nipples bitten or being scratched.  One time, I ended up over at his house, and things got a little hot.  I confessed that I had never been tied up before, to which he grinned and walked away silently.  I propped myself up in his bed and waited patiently until he returned with a belt.  He immediately took my wrists and bound them together, and then lifted them over my head and bound them to this loft-style thing above his bed.  He then spent some time biting at my nipples and making me squeal before heading down to eat me out (and let me tell you, he was pretty boss at eating pussy, probably the only reason I dealt with him as long as I did).  Being tied up and unable to move away was extremely sexy.  I struggled a little bit, and when I tensed up I could feel the belt biting into my wrists, but it was enjoyable overall.  Definitely something I’ve been wanting to happen again.

Since that’s the kinkiest thing I’ve ever really done, I’d have to say I can’t wait to meet my Master and experience a full-on kink session with Him.  I’m anticipating a very good spanking, on top of being tied up, flogged, caned, cropped, whipped, smacked, scratched, bitten, and fucked roughly in every orifice.  And if I’m a good little kitten, He may just cum deep in my pussy or, better yet, down my throat.

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25th May 2012

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Thirty days of kink: day four.

Day 4: Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks?

None that I can particularly remember.  In fact, I was almost the opposite of myself.  I hated being yelled at, I hated being objectified or degraded or patronized, I hated any kind of pain haha.  Oh the wonders that going through puberty can do!

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23rd May 2012

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Thirty days of kink: day three.

Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?

Hm.  That’s a really good question actually.  I don’t think there was ever an epiphany, a moment where I realized “hey i like kinky sex and bdsm!’.  I do know that I started out looking at Whipped Ass at an age that I’m uncomfortable listing here.  Needless to say, I was much too young to be looking at what I was.  However, the images and videos intrigued me, and from that point on, I really started to come to terms with the kind of sex that I liked.  I’ve always been somewhat of a feminist, but the idea of being humiliated and objectified has always been a turn-on in the back of my head.  When I started having sex a few years later, I was always on the search for rough sex, and for more and more dominant men to have sex with.  I wanted someone to put me in my place and to treat me the way I needed to be treated in and out of the bedroom.  As of now, I’m pretty sure I’ve found that.

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22nd May 2012

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Thirty days of kink: day two.

Day 2: List your kinks.

Oops.  I did that on day one.  Damn my clarifying.  I’ll repost them!

Kinks:

  • being choked
  • pain/discipline (spanking, caning, flogging, whipping, nipple clamps, wax play, scratching, biting, bruising, etc.)
  • humiliation/degradation (being patronized, being spoken down to/called worthless, condescending tones, etc.)
  • being tied up/suspended
  • being gagged
  • being teased.  this may seem like a no-brainer, but i really love the art of the tease, especially if it gets my clit throbbing and my pussy soaked with little to no actual physical contact.
  • forced orgasm/orgasm denial

Hard Limits

  • Piss
  • Scat
  • Bloodletting
  • Menstruation play
  • enemas
  • anything where you’re going to shove my head into a toilet.

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21st May 2012

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Thirty days of kink: day one.

Day 1: Dom, sub, switch?  What parts of BDSM interest you?  Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

Sub, definitely.  And really, I can’t think of a part of each of the three sub-genres of BDSM that DOESN’T interest me.  Bondage and Discipline, definitely, because I’m incredibly interested in being tied up/gagged and punished or taught discipline period. Domination and submission… well this should be self explanatory if you follow my blog.  Sadism/masochism, for sure.  Master is a bit of a sadist, and loves to make me suffer through pain.  I, being a masochist, LOVE every single part of this.  i love pain and humiliation and degradation and everything that goes along with it.  It’s harder to define my kinky self in paragraph form, so I’m going to make a quick list of my kinks and a list of my hard limits.

Kinks:

  • being choked
  • pain/discipline (spanking, caning, flogging, whipping, nipple clamps, wax play, scratching, biting, bruising, etc.)
  • humiliation/degradation (being patronized, being spoken down to/called worthless, condescending tones, etc.)
  • being tied up/suspended
  • being gagged
  • being teased.  this may seem like a no-brainer, but i really love the art of the tease, especially if it gets my clit throbbing and my pussy soaked with little to no actual physical contact.
  • forced orgasm/orgasm denial

Hard Limits

  • Piss
  • Scat
  • Bloodletting
  • Menstruation play
  • enemas
  • anything where you’re going to shove my head into a toilet.

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24th April 2012

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Thirty days of submission: day seven

7) Do you accept and/or expect discipline or punishments as a part of your submission? How do you feel about it?

Yes yes yes!  Punishments and discipline are verrrry much part of my submission to anyone.  I’m a bit of a masochist, and I get into moods where I very much just crave feeling abused.  One of my favorite punishments is a spanking, and I’m extremely interested in caning as well.  Discipline is something completely different - such as right now, Master is working on teaching me patience.  Sometimes it’s really really hard because for the most part I can’t help myself from begging - it just doesn’t happen.  However, bondage and BDSM are definitely a huge part of my life :)

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